FLATTERED

addiction thats what they call
in our situation that we fall
i love you more than everything
and ought to know that i will give you anything.

i wasnt disapponted from the day you realized
that there's something wrong in me
instead ,i cried and give big thanks to god
atleast you realized what you have done

i even shared it with my friends
that i have a guy whose so concerned
to bring back all the love we had
though we have so many painful times

it was just a message that i've received
from my guy telling how much i mean to him
he even said he loves me more
and he will love me until we grow old

with teary eyes i smiled
replied to him i will love him much
though there are times that we felt so cold
i think this is the time for reconciliation.

im so much inlove from then till now
and the moment he said those words to me
i see my own eyes glittery
and then realized *I SO LOVE MY HONEY* :)

THE BETRAYAL

i am good
that's what he said
but what i feel
i am being betrayed

in a relationship we have
there's no other girl
it's just me
and the lies ahead

a lie that equals to a girl
an alcohol that makes him man
those thing i think was betrayal
though it was just casual

the battle of me and a lie
makes me weak
in this war
i couldnt reach and make believe

one by one it breaks my heart
into pieces as you lie
sorry was just your role
but you didnt think its a foul

i hope the second chance was good
and come to think lying wont take as any good
as far as i know i love you so
though i am betrayed im willing to be in pain

PAINFUL TO LOVE

it is painful that i love you
so much of lies and so much ofsorrows
still i am here
being one of those martyrs

i love you as you can see
as we go further in this relationship
we've been tied together in this commitment
that i never knew will gonna end

sometimes i cried and even smiled
sometimes i hate and bothered that i am loved
though it makes me feel im in pain
whenever we argued over and over again

i tried to give you up
thinking that this will be enough
enough for the pain that you have brought
sigh..if i could only paint my heart with joy

the best thing is i never quit
though i am really sick
sick of your lies, promises and pains..
but i love it everytime i feel your care

i love you so much
though i bleed and burst
i love you so..
though it really hurts.

SORRY.. COZ' IT'S JUST ME

if i say bad things
it happens to be i am just angry
i know it must hurt
but i mostly know i will regret in the end

sorry if i always count on you
that all my life you lend me through
i apologize for not standing on my own
even i know you didn't mind it though

i am sorry if i only waste your time
whenever we sit behind
story telling and opening up
i hope it doesn't matter to you my boo

sorry if i am so cruel
that all i want is being ruined
i am sorry it's my fault
i admit it coz' i am wrong

sorry as i always say
forgive me or do i have to pay?
i know i am not perfect
so here i speak with my poem sorry is lended

with words full of sincerity
here i say i am trully sorry
through my words and my acts
i am sorry coz it's just me

03/07/2010 FILLED UP WITH HATE

the story

i have done all my works
thinking it was the right thing to do
but they scold and disagreed
telling me it's all wrong and ruined

they shouted
until i screamed
i cried
as they do a scene

i got my boyfriend back then
we are the two fighting in front of them
and here's my family
claiming that they were the people im fighting with

i lose control of myself
i should have killed my boyfriend in a second
i was able to get the knife
with my anger i want him die

he was being pushed away
while i am screaming his name
with voice so loud and shivering
please go back here and save me

he heard me but its the end
he ride on his motorcycle
and leave me with those creeps
who want me to be unhappy

i started to cry and cry
while i am begging him to stay
yet he refused and fade
then i asked myself..is this the love he promised??

he's a man whose afraid to fight for me
though he said that he really love me
oh crap its a mess
dealing with a guy who care less

in my mind it's a question
until i know its a redemption
i ruined everything in a day
and so here.. i am the one to blame

GOODBYE TO YOU

i've done my part
to win you back
yet you loose your track
im here yet you mocked

i called you up to say im sorry
yet u ignored and i feel guilty
i dialed again yet you cancelled
here i am feeling rejected

my mind don't run
coz i am slow
forgive me please
please dont go

i want you here
yet you turned your back
how fool i am
to bend down my knee on you

still you ignored
and now were done
the hope of forgiveness
now i know is gone

im leaving now
its my last word to you
goodbye and i love you so
though you just let me go.

DON'T BE THE LAST TO KNOW

theres no way i could speak
about what i feel
it makes me sick
whenever youre not here

i want every minute of you
looking into my eyes so pure
holding my hands as we walk
into the valleys of shadow we stalked

i don't treat you a friend
coz' you are more than that
if there's a message in a bottle to send
i'll tell you my feelings won't end

please don't be the last to know
how much i need you
this feelings of mine is true
its only for you

here is my heart you owned it
and my soul of course you have it
i am selfishly inlove
so please hear my voice saying
please don't be the last to know- i love you

JEALOUS

she made a move
and i counterpart
she made me jealous
and so do i

i made a plan to exchange with it
i called up my friend to do the same
write a message that she'll be jealous of
and thats what my friend does

after all she got mad
though she's the first who made that trash
i explained everything but i guess were done
she had a guy and that breaks my heart

i love her much
and so i cry
with cold tears in my eye
and now i gotta say goodbye

hopefully she'll be happy of what she did
i guess its time to let go of her
i wont stop her though it hurts
i only say take care my friend...

MY GIRL

i made this poem thinking about a friend of mine,.. he was a guy who loved my bestfriend so much but i did'nt expect that they'll go separate just because of computer games :)

i got a girl
they say she was so noisy
but for me she's just jolly
and that's what i can see

i love her much
and she love me too
she was just my friend
and love brought us to an end

we tied ourselves in months of relationship
we spend our time happy together
then wound her heart and i know that hurts her
she left me alone so quietly

i realized what i have done
she was my girl
but i don't give her time
in my computer i just lied

before, daily i begin to play
they say im an addict
but my girl cheer me up and stays
though i know she wants to quit and leave

i won the game im playing with
all along i know she's tired of it
for that i didnt value her much
and the consequence of winning the game
is losing my girl.

TATTOED LOVE

i heard others talking bout me
i just listen to them though it hurts
much more when they talked about you
it's like they're grabbing my heart so hard

i ignored them for what they say is fake
they say you're foolin' me
but i don't even care
as long as your here with me i know i'll be happy

mountains of discouragement i hear
they say im not that pretty
though you love me still
and that's what all i care

they say im a flirt
and all i got to do is laugh
coz' i know for you
im not that bad

they continued their story
beyond you and me
i hear them but i dont believe
coz' it's just you that matters to me

your voice is all i hear
coz' the truth you say i know is clear
you love me more than anyone else
they're just envy coz' in my heart you stay

not even mentioning
i know the meaning is deep within
i know i am there
tattoed in your heart forever.

A FRIEND OF YOURS

whew.. i made this poem for 5 minutes only... it's bcoz of a friend in facebook.. this words come easily in my mind :) though i got the wrong concept..!!

wipe away your tears
and let sadness disappear
here i am standing still
cheering you up so just chill

you have your face like a king
so never let it turned into a frown
or others will be happy in ur pain
and so they win to let you down

here's my hand
just hold it
the opportunity comes in a while
so grab it

I'll make you smile all through the night
you don't have to be lonely
as long as your here with me
i am a friend of yours and you're a friend of mine

i'll help you with everything
so just clear your mind

JUST A PROMISE

i tied myself all over you
so that whenever we argue
i am still with you
as we fix it through

i am obsessed with this love you gave
that i cherished every moment you dedicate
u gave your heart after your soul
it's like an angel giving his hands to a demon

over and over again
we broke our promises
and then we go promise again
and still pieces of it do the same

i know this has to be stopped
or else our love will be locked
with argue over faith
we can heal each others hate

from this day onward i promise to you
this bad aura of mine will disappear
so hug me tight and show some love
i'll be yours until the end of time

as i promise this to you
im lending my heart
so grab it hard
hope this promise will never be broken

NO MORE HATES

we love each other now
we did'nt argue much
we value our time
that fond loneliness has gone..

as he laid his head on my lap
he's quite telling me i miss you much..
and then i stared at him
sincerely telling i am loving him much

i never thought of pain
since the day that he has laid
i hope this will never gonna end
as i speak through my mind

it's the dream i wanted even before
a dream that i am struggling and fighting for
our love will reamain i know..
no one can never break

a promise to be a wife
and a he will be the man in my life
he will be mine
and im gonna be he's only one :)

IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!

i dream of this
since i was a child
to be a princess
in a day of my life

and now im finally here
im gonna be EIGHTEEN...
my childish acts will be gone
coz i just grown up

im no more a little girl
who cries and cries if get hurt
i am now stronger as i think of
postive will just remain in my mind

as i live the past
i was a numb
but now im in present
i will never be that dumb..

now that i learned it all
sunshines smile at me
saying
IT'S YOUR BIRTHDAY SO BE HAPPY.. =)