THE BREAK UP

(i made this the last time my boyfriend and i argue.. about a month ago..
just want to share my feelings the last time i feel so bad..but i am much happy by now so no worries.. :D i so love this poem.. coz this is "ME" )

it was so hard to try and try
to put back the love that dies
and bring back happiness in our time
i just can't help it but cry

it was a cold afternoon outside
my tears just go freezing inside
that i want him out of my sight
and then told him go and die!

it simply breaks my heart saying those words
but i think im out of control
with my heart being hurt
can't do anything that is good

and so i wake up into that lonely dream
i just cried
but still he's wiping my tears
though i made him sad
he ignored, just to make me feel glad

it's bitter that i made myself so poor
with that hate and much pressure
for that i saw what love means
it's just a matter of sacrifice.

MISSING YOU

im so inlove with you
that in my mind i can't even erase you
though ur still lying in my arms
i am missing you

i should have tell you how much you mean to me
but i can't
and tell you how much i love you
but i am scared

i want you
it's just only you
nothing in this world will make me happy
it's just you that i need in eternity

i promise to love you more
though it's fatal to live
in a world with toxics
you'lll be my oxygen that i'll breathe

MISA'S SECOND THOUGHT

i am selfish that's what i know
to kill people's innocence is just my role
though it give's me so much pain
i'll do everything for him to win this game

i offered him my whole life
but then again he's not satisfied
until i traded my own eyes
to a god of death then i got blind

he then loved me after my eyes
for it's his weapon
in a world that he desired
then i realized he's a man of ice

he used me as his own device
i knew that thing but i just agree
with my love for him
i'll be the one who he wants to be

until the end he got heart attack
i wished to him his own luck
though he lose the game he plays
i love him much and it will stay.

A LOVE THAT'S SWEET

in the morning as i wake up
he's there to give a stuff
in the afternoon he was there
just to say he cares.

every minute he smiles at me
and that makes me feel i am lovely
and every hour he always ask
are you okay? then he'll give me a hug

he'll put his arms around my waist
telling me he loves me so
i may love the rain
as we go through it and ease the pain

i will never forget the time that he stood me up
whenever i think that im a scrap
though he's the man who made me cry
i will still love him and promise to never say goodbye.

I JUST LOVE SUNDAYS

when he's lying beside me
and his arms around me
feeling like i am oh so secure
with his stare that i treasure.

he's not the first man in my life
yet i know he's my only one
hes not the first who touched my heart
yet he's the first that fills it with love

i even love spending time with him
though it's impossible and it's more likely a dream
having him beside me as always
is still my fantasy but it's not the case

on sundays we smile
or laugh at any time
though one day is not enough
i can feel that there's really love

unlike the others who has much time
greater than ours or even mine
they just argue and fight
till they breakdown and cry

I should be thankful for what god did
he gave me sundays to spend time with him
he who loves me much
and he who gave the best shot

I just love sundays
when he was there in a rush
and i just love sundays
coz i know it's the perfect day for us.

AS MY HEART SAYS

is this love that i feel?
or it's just a fantasy and not for real?
am i only dreaming?
please don't wake me uP if im only sleeping

The flashback starts as i open my eyes
As you lifted me up for the past two years of my life
you've been my night in shining armor
through the days and nights we savour

I never imagine that someone will love me much
and fill the emptiness in my heart
until you walk through my door and give me love
For that i really thank god from up above

I am selfish that's all i know
I want you badly so please don't go
I need you in my life and that's what i saw
that in eternity i'll still love you so

and so i wake up my eyes just glow
as my mind tells me so
i love you so
so please don't leave me alone

I HATE THIS PART

when i am scared to let go of you
even if sometimes you hurt me too
not physically but through your act
i am a loser and just turn my back

as we go through this lonely night
i just fool myself and keep tellin' im alright
with words you speak
I am nothing but so weak

I almost forgot my name
thinking if tomorrow will be the same
it makes my heart burned in fire
as we go this argue over night

I even hate this part
that we have to be stuck
through our minds that were so narrow
and leave one of us pain and and sorrow

i hope someday we can still go back
to our first month that all we do is laugh
we have no time for this
until we break our hearts into piece

im asking for your forgiveness dear
and wishing this night will be cleared
as we face another day
that happiness will be on our way.

THE ANGEL CRIES

i saw him goin down
with wings so purely white
a face with a smile
an angel sent by god

he dared towatch a girl of satan
he stood up though he know he will never be forgiven
The girl may be dead
But he spread his wings and the girl was saved

he knew what he has done was wrong
he's not a god to extend the girls lifespan
he just spread his wings again
then i saw his wings not that white

Little by little he's fading on my sight
He hide the tears until he fly
but then i know his smile was fake
for me to know that he is okay

I bowed, I prayed as i closed my eyes
I know the angel will never die
until i finally recognized
that the angel cries..

GAME OF LOVE

didn't you fool me?
Or it's just me who can't feel it?
they say im a gambler of love
but my heart was being robbed

as i fall for you
my shadow disappear
you then conquer my fear
because you hover me near

It makes me shiver when you're there
I kept thinking on our love affair
I thought my life was just a mess
until you dress me up and treat me well

I decided to be yours forever
wishingwe will last together
all the miseries gone away
with you i will stay

Its funny that i cried
through your mountain lies
but then you made me smile
you took my heart in this game of love

MY INSPIRATION

this poem was made during my senior class batch 07-08'..

when i first saw you
i got bloom
when i talked to you
thinkin' im out of my room

even in my bed
i always think of you and what you've said
always smile and never be sad
whenever you're tired always be glad
my heart falls for you
after all of this view

I cant imagine my life
without you by my side
you are my reason
and babe- you're my inspiration

HOW??

How can you say you love me?
If you don't mind me..
How can you say you wan't me?
If you don't care bout me?

What else can you say if you're not with me?
How can you say our relationship is true?
If someone is in you?
Love that i want too
I found in you

Please tell me the truth
that gave me the freedom of youth
Love that was meant to be..
Is it true?

GHOST OF LOVE

They poisoned the air
they tried to kill me
still i am breathing
with love i am here

Watch behind you
theyre trying to hurt you
don't even try to speak
coz they'll poison you as you breathe

i am strong as much as you're here
honey let me be your armor
better release your fear
coz i'll always be here

With no regrets i promise
I'll be yours so trust me
close your eyes and you'll be safe
I'll bring you freedom and I 'll be fair

I'll wait for you as forever is through
no one will ever replace its just you
though im a ghost with no more needs
I will always wanted you

DADDY'S LITTLE GIRL

she was a daddy's little girl from beyond
grew her mind with lots of questions
why she's just alone?
why her mom doesn't even give a call

she went to her dad all by herself
she saw him kissing another girl
walking away coz she was betrayed
then went to her mom who lies in tomb

she took her diary and just wrote
he was mom's greatest sorrow..
that someday she promised
he'll get fold

she went to sleep mad and cold
she promise not to wake up again
if daddy's goin' home
she break her silence into the night

her thinking became a nightmare
she can't even feel her heartbeat's rare
as she fell into the ground with gun on her hand
she whispered i'll die as daddy wished.

VARIETY OF PAIN

i lived past seventeen years
and got all of harmonious pains
left me the feeling of being insane
but someone tells me im just in vain

thought he was a dumb terror
whispering in my ears to commit errors
a satan in a shadow
covering a face that glows

took a pill to forget his name
coz i know he's just someone who'll let me fall again
a slash into my pulse
and become the demon in his thought

im bleeding yet he's still there
don't know if he was just there for me to suffer
looking into his eyes was all i got
kissing his lips as blood comes out

thought im gonna die
but still it's not my time
that pain could kill me so
as my mind goes wild and slow

i want him die but i wont let go
well see in hell as i thought
but he was an angel sent by god
turned into a demon just to lift me up

that pains just wanted me down
until i finally understand
he just turned the pain into love
though he's a demon in my sight
i fall for him and be the lucifer in his life

BLACKISH DREAM

as i lay down in my bed
i got nails under my head
the loud voice screaming
while im shaking into the glimpse..

come on' well go fly away
escape the reality of shame
be the king in my heart and stay
though we'll bleed the same..

together our love is tenderly
hurt is just a game of love and meant to be
darling all you gotta do is stay
from night into day or forever much okay

quietly we speak into the night
and dream the happiness in eternity
well go ahead laugh and speak
as we travel this fascinately

im quenched by your heavy tears
found the love you bring
hope this dream won't end
and reality just go and fade

well sleep silently
i'll give my million hearts
just cover me passionately
and we will never fall apart.