FAREWELL

You had served me for so long,
And now im quite irresponsible.
I am feeling lost
I think my mind crashed on.

We used to be together,
The time you arent busy yet,
But clearly, one by one we fade
I just don't know but we need to accept it.

I learned to live my life alone,
I used to be tough
as i go through the day
feeling like i am okay.

I didn't expect that this feeling will invade me,
Looks like loneliness embraced me tightly,
I need to hold back,
Or else everything will be gone.

For now, I am sorry.
I need to leave you
And find my self
When i turned out okay,
Promise to be with you again.

THE FLATTERER

He used to tell me im pretty,
Though i never agree
He used to tell me that im nice
With that i never think twice

I used to smile with his compliments
Feeling i am loved in other way.
He showed me how happy i can be
With him theres no word of impossibility.

I am falling from his words
The way he move
All he was A perfect picture of a gentle man
And of course a lover,

Happiness has passed away,
As i discovered how he treats me and others are just the same
He used to flatter me everyday
I was just cold that he might don't stay.

It was a lesson learned,
I have my mistake for i trust him the most,
Though i was being warned
I was fooled and i was lost.

I can;t be a manhater
For i know i'll find someone who will love me
But still i have to take care
And guide myself to find the one who will love me seriously.

WASTED

She told i lie,
and that melts my heart
I want her by my side
But this pain is killing me so i just stopped.

Another arguement to deal with,
I think im kinda tired.
I gave everything to meet her expectations
And still im out of her imagination.

I have collided.
And so i need to focus,
I need to be decided
For me not to lose.

I love her fully,
but then she fooled me.
I dont know what to do
My heart keeps saying she's being UNTRUE.

Anyhow, i don't want this feeling
Im upset and i have the beastest emotion.
I hope and pray that tomorrow will be okay.
I love her so much so I'll just take the risk and stay.

FLATTERED

addiction thats what they call
in our situation that we fall
i love you more than everything
and ought to know that i will give you anything.

i wasnt disapponted from the day you realized
that there's something wrong in me
instead ,i cried and give big thanks to god
atleast you realized what you have done

i even shared it with my friends
that i have a guy whose so concerned
to bring back all the love we had
though we have so many painful times

it was just a message that i've received
from my guy telling how much i mean to him
he even said he loves me more
and he will love me until we grow old

with teary eyes i smiled
replied to him i will love him much
though there are times that we felt so cold
i think this is the time for reconciliation.

im so much inlove from then till now
and the moment he said those words to me
i see my own eyes glittery
and then realized *I SO LOVE MY HONEY* :)

THE BETRAYAL

i am good
that's what he said
but what i feel
i am being betrayed

in a relationship we have
there's no other girl
it's just me
and the lies ahead

a lie that equals to a girl
an alcohol that makes him man
those thing i think was betrayal
though it was just casual

the battle of me and a lie
makes me weak
in this war
i couldnt reach and make believe

one by one it breaks my heart
into pieces as you lie
sorry was just your role
but you didnt think its a foul

i hope the second chance was good
and come to think lying wont take as any good
as far as i know i love you so
though i am betrayed im willing to be in pain

PAINFUL TO LOVE

it is painful that i love you
so much of lies and so much ofsorrows
still i am here
being one of those martyrs

i love you as you can see
as we go further in this relationship
we've been tied together in this commitment
that i never knew will gonna end

sometimes i cried and even smiled
sometimes i hate and bothered that i am loved
though it makes me feel im in pain
whenever we argued over and over again

i tried to give you up
thinking that this will be enough
enough for the pain that you have brought
sigh..if i could only paint my heart with joy

the best thing is i never quit
though i am really sick
sick of your lies, promises and pains..
but i love it everytime i feel your care

i love you so much
though i bleed and burst
i love you so..
though it really hurts.

SORRY.. COZ' IT'S JUST ME

if i say bad things
it happens to be i am just angry
i know it must hurt
but i mostly know i will regret in the end

sorry if i always count on you
that all my life you lend me through
i apologize for not standing on my own
even i know you didn't mind it though

i am sorry if i only waste your time
whenever we sit behind
story telling and opening up
i hope it doesn't matter to you my boo

sorry if i am so cruel
that all i want is being ruined
i am sorry it's my fault
i admit it coz' i am wrong

sorry as i always say
forgive me or do i have to pay?
i know i am not perfect
so here i speak with my poem sorry is lended

with words full of sincerity
here i say i am trully sorry
through my words and my acts
i am sorry coz it's just me